Psychologist friend thinks it’s low self-esteem.  I agree but don’t know how to fix it.

 

Also, I still have strong feelings for her.  Can’t stop them.  Hurts every day.  Drained of energy and desire.  Depressed every day now and taking amino acid supplements (neuroreplete) because mom thinks my brain might be out of whack.  Didn’t want to.  Got bad enough I decided to.